:: Where's God? ::
God, the Almighty God. I need you, need you completely. After watching the scenes of the drama, I can't understand why, why are we fearful even when we know that You are the Almighty God?
God, I want to ask, and I long to ask. Why are there differences in the deaths of different ones? I don't understand why some passed on peacefully, wheras, some had very tragedic endings. As I've realised, that some of these tragedies didn't exist only now. In the B.C.(s), it actually happened too. Why are there such people? Ans: They are not themselves anymore, they are taken control by the spirit of evil. How did that happen? Ans: Their weaknesses.
As I was washing the dishes, and pondering, a voice came to my mind and said this: "If you fear that, you would just have to become one so in order not to fear of the one". WHAT? This is definitely not from God!! I don't have to become one of these predators to overcome fear, or to overcome the consequences.
Then I asked myself these, "Can a murderer be murdered?". Obvious answer, yes. Then what's the point? Even if I do it, I still stand the risk of being a victim. What's the point??
Stop being so silly!!!!!!!!!!
posted at [10:36 PM]
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Filled to the Neck!!
I'm filled up with so much stuff to the neck......
posted at [2:57 PM]
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Only You
This is a video I've done for my song. Decided not to put it into MP3, because WAV format always gives me trouble. Sigh..
Here I am blogging in school, after a long long while. Can't believe I'm school at this hour. Because I can't stay at home. Sigh...
The dream's just too real. Lord Jesus, I don't want anything to happen to my family. In the name of Jesus, I declare no weapons formed against You shall prosper. I declare that nothing the enemy can do to my family, because God, You are Sovereign over them. I proclaim only Harmony and Prosperity into the family. Amen!!
I don't care what's of the past. The church or the leaders. Nothing would divide the family. You have placed me in God, in Creative Ministry, because You want me to glorify Your name; create works for You, a legacy for You, and to be a living testimony to the people around. Definitely, many have already seen, and yet to see. They are in awe of You. Therefore, nothing that comes as obstacles would prevail as an "obstacle". They'll just be weeps to be pulled out by You. Amen!!
posted at [5:40 PM]
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Thursday, October 09, 2008
:: The Pain Of Truth ::
High Risk = High Return
What about:
High Expectation = ?
What can be derived from having a high expectation?
High Expectation = High Return?
High Expectation = High Disappointment? (I REJECT THIS IN THE NAME OF JESUS!)
What do you expect in return when you expect too much in someone, an organization, etc?
I've been pretty low in spirits these days. And don't feel like talking or speaking. The more I kept it inside, the deeper the pain goes in the heart. I know all of them, all of these wouldn't satisfy me. My friends, I know not who are genuine. It's perhaps we're at the age of competitive edge, and this is a atlantic destruction to friendship and many relationships. Being able to participate in class and understand everything is my new achievement. However, it has made me rather tired. Suddenly I find myself isolating myself from friends (during breaks, etc), as I'm just too tired to socialize. Bcoz I don't know who is true. I get scared of friendships. Partly it's also becoz I don't want to be around when someone else I don't quite know and don't-wish-to-get-to-know is around.
Sandie had a song which goes "Where is God in all of these? Why has He forgotten me? Where is God in all of these? Oh, when will I, when will I, find my love?". And it is replied, "Jesus who cares, Who's always there for me, to be a Light in the dark, guiding my way. Who lift me up, give me strength to carry on. Shining Your love into my life, now I have realised."
Until now, I've only found ONE answer, and I've not found another:
High Expectation FROM GOD = High Return FROM GOD
During my low spirits, I always end up writing songs. Till I've got too many melodies on hand, which makes me pretty confused at times, as to how am I supposed to consolidate all of these?
The recent song was written after speaking to Nicky and Ellen about an issue I tried running away, fighting against it, then running away again, and then fighting again for a long period of time. Till I recently brought up the issue so LET'S FACE IT!!
Now I Can Declare That You Are God
G
Thinking of You
D
The longing of my heart
Em D
To see You enter with open arms
C
When I'm thinking of You
D Em
Yes, You're the Only One
C D
Surpass, beyond far measure
G
Thinking of You
D
My heart yearns
Em D
For it's You, who, can really satisfy
C D Em
And it's You, the Savior, my King and my Joy
C D
And I'm here, to await Your coming (for You to come)
Chorus: (can't figure out the chords)
Only You
The One, nothing compares to You
Desires, materials and fame we get/bear
They are not-thing more than e-ver You-can-bring
They would all turn to ashes as-the-earth fades away
More than life
You hold depths within (within~)
My heart, no one even yet to win (no one else~3, else~3)
Than the way, Your countenance shines on me (silence)
I can only proclaim that You are God
(end on G)
posted at [5:11 PM]
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