Voice Of Truth
I'm surrounded by a thousand sound of the world. There are many voices that have been calling my name but left me when I responded, and kept silent when I called out to them. The giant keeps telling and reminding me time and time again how I tried before and failed. The giant keeps telling me time and time again, "Girl, you'll never win, you never win!".
When I listen to the voice of truth tells me a different story. The Voice says do not be afraid. The Voice says this is for My Glory. All the voices are calling out to me. But I will choose to listen to the Voice of Truth.
When my voice reaches out to the Voice of Truth, I know I'm heard. Now I can sing my lifesong to the Voice. Come and join my life. If not, I sing in vain tonight. Let my lifesong sing brings a smile to You. Let my lifesong sing to You.
Who am I? I'm a flower quickly fading, a vapour in the wind. But I am Yours. Your voice that calls out for the storm to calm in me. Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done. It's not because of what I've done, but because of who You are. Still You hear my voice, when I'm calling. I am Yours.
Now praise is rising from within me, and my eyes are turning to You. My hope is yearning and my heart is longing for You. In Your presence, all my fears are washed away. Now hear the sound of my heart returning to You, and what's been broken will be made new in You. When I see You and hear the Voice, I find strength to face the day. Hosanna!!
posted at [8:23 PM]
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Best Student Award
I'm enjoyin school, almost everything, from lectures to taekwondos. It seems like I've learnt to love the art of education and to grasp the thirst of knowledge. My test grades are not too bad, getting low As for the beginning. I'll be improving though.
I wrote this on my Assignment paper for Maths module, "Best SIM Student Member Award". So my cute Math lecturer wrote his comment next to mine, "Well Done". Muahahah..
I'm so glad that God has also restored family love within our home, something that deserted us during the storm early in the year. God indeed has greater plans. I'll treasure my family to the fullest. The 2recent public holidays on the calendar has enabled us to foster better bonding in our relationships and stimulate cohesion. My lovely parents have even gotten both my sister and I a wonderful birthday present!! Hooray!! Thank God for that.
posted at [6:14 PM]
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How's Grace?
Walking into the journey of acceleration, the theme of all that's happening lately. Moving on, moving up, that's how I'm seeing all of it. I will no longer present the old-immature side of me. They belong to the past. Not of any purpose to bring it up for show. Growing up perhaps was a little harsh a language to speak of. However, we don't have the luxury of choice at times. If we receive these matters with an open mind, an open perspective, all will be made easier and let all work in His plans and kairos time. Humanity will be lost if His guidance is removed from it. It'll be like a city of ants in chaos and no sense of momentum nor direction. Ironically, humanity at times would love to take things in their very hands, and time to time realise that all was ruined in them. Hence, if all was placed into His hands right in the beginning, it should not go into ruin, but into fulfillment. Sarangbhnida; I love You.
I met PsPete last evening. My mind was in a whirl, as I rushed down on a non-intellectual cab from a broken bus journey to church. Hence, I wasn't in the right mode of speaking, and I wasn't quite sure what I was saying or what was I thinking. I spoke things that are not of myself that evening. Also, I wasn't well enough to listen to all that was said. However, I understand the points that was made across. To conclude all that was spoken;..grow up:)
posted at [4:04 PM]
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Acceptance where Are You??
I really don't know what to do sometimes in order to get the approval and acceptance of people, who are my cp and another my senior. Coincidentally they're one male and another female respectively. I'm so discouraged. But I guess their disapproval should not be a means to stop me from getting further. I don't understand how can a relationship be vanished so easily. Was it just because I stopped joining them for lunch as I was thrifting painstakingly? I really don't know the answer. Or was it of my character that they dislike right from the start? Or is it because of someone that I was also outcasted as well? What happened....? sobs... Self-reproach self-reproach. I'm not getting anywhere if I stay into this mode. I'm not gonna be beaten down by all these. In my rules, I don't get beaten down, I only beat the others down. It's not important afterall whether you achieve others' approvals, but His approvals. I'm glad my Creator accepts me even in my several weaknesses. Thank You Jesus!! I'm there to learn anyway, and not to gain anyone's approval. I'll work hard to improve on the skills, not for anyone.
Bragging and boasting derives from insecurity. Therefore it's not as if those who always talk big about themselves are always what they portray to be. However, they are the big-to-be in the mere dialogues. Nothing to admire about anyway.
Not admitting one's mistake is already another mistake. If one has already shown and told the other the right way, but the other insist on the wrong, there's nothing that can be done to allow the other to improve. Both parties will be at loss. However, the one who refuses to learn from the mistakes will have the greater loss.
You notice I don't mention names anywhere here. However, these are people I see time to time. Humanity is filled with flaws, that we find it hard to accept each other at times. However, God accepts everyone. That's something most amazing; how much I can can't stand another, but God still loves the person. Awesome. Salute Peyha!
posted at [11:07 PM]
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Perspectives make Life different
Initially I thought I wasn't really welcomed, till I decided to change my perspective about certain stuff, which really make my life happier. I'm not gonna give something up so easily.
Today at training, I was given a chance to spar. Hooray!! I wanted to spar, but I'm always too self-conscious and too worried how people will be judging my no-good skills. However, I had to take off my specs while sparring, hence that didn't really matter as I couldn't see them. I started of really bad, can't aim can't kick properly and no strength. I'm gonna practice, be better man.
Today was really silly, as WeiWen decided to snap pictures of YangTheng & Jason's scandalous photos of kissing and holding of hands. All was done just for the fun of it, and probably to make Sean envious. The whole group of girls and guys went teasing and laughing about it.
Jason also mentioned this evening that he did something behind Yvonne's back, which was taken place at Sean's place. Hence, Yvonne complained that I didn't play my role as a lawyer, where I didn't report the matter to her. Fainted!! I left early at the gathering at Sean's place, so I didn't know any of such things happened. Lame. (though my 2legs are still intact)
I'm gonna take whole of His Word, meditate on it day and night, not departing from my mouth.
posted at [10:26 PM]
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
Life's Like That for Grace
We had cell last night at Charlotte's house again, muahaha. I was really quiet last night, though in me there was alot to contribute in the conversation. However, I chose to kept silent, because I was afraid I'd say something inappropriate and not related. So I just kept taking notes throughout the entire cell. Trying to be as serious as I can. Till it was time to go back home to our own habitats, haha. Alfred and I walk through the terribly hazed street to RedHill MRT, and rushed into the air-conditioned train as soon as it came. In the train, we talked about how some soft toys are satanic. Teletubies and pokemons are satanic. The fillings of the soft toys of teletubies are buddha beads, prayed over, etc. That's why people experience their teletubies moving at night, and singing those silly songs. After these eerie stuff, something on the train caught my eye. I saw a golden live beetle on the floor of the train near to an exit. There we kept observing that silly beetle, and I began talking to him about my experience with beetles and cockroaches; how one night after a meal of rambutans, I felt something like a rambutan on my arms, so i thought it was safe to leave it there! Till I felt it moving on my arm, and I grabbed it immediately and threw it out of my room. There was another night, I felt this funny insect on my legs, so I went to grabbed it and crushed it in my hands, then brought out to my dad at the dining table and threw it at his newspapers. Muahaha, then to realise it's a cockroach. haha. I know these are gross stories, but I did all of them. Wahaha. So when Alfred's about to get down at LakeSide Station, we lost track of where the beetle went. Haha. We kept scanning around the MRT, at the exit area to find thatttt beetleee. Muahaha. When it's LakeSide, Alfred said he really don't know where it went. However, just before I got down at my station BoonLay, which is one stop after his, I saw this golden thing on the rubbers of the exit area. There it was... Luckily, the train driver decided to change track, so I got down from the exit opposite to the beetle's exit. Muahaha.
posted at [10:19 AM]
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
: : Song : :
Em C
Now I'll praise You in this storm
G
And I will lift my hands
D
You are who You are
Em
No matter where I am
C G
Every tear I cried, You hold in Your hand
D
You've never left my side
Am7
Though my heart is torn
C D
I will praise You in this storm
posted at [10:50 AM]
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Restless Mode..Don't Know When's It
My secret desire, which I never really share with many, as I'm afraid I'll pass a wrong message to them. However, the inner quest is getting stronger and stronger, and the yearning is becoming more and more heated.
But I guess, God wants me to focuz on Him more than on when I can serve Him. I know the period is painful. It definitely will. However, it's a good chance to learn more from the "experienced" and allow Him to mould the package in me. Just like how a scuplture is moulded, before it's displayed. Zeal without the Word is redundant. Infectious faith with authenticity isn't Contagious Faith. All of us has lacking in many areas, and it'll be good to prepare ourselves with a pure heart before entering into service.
God will definitely mould me, and prepare me. Patience is exactly the question. Do I have it? That gotta be worked on. In fact the Lord has brought me higher and higher each time, to a higher level. I love encounters with Him. And we should always move up.
posted at [12:36 AM]
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