Miss ConGeNiaLity's Chronicles

<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/30315547?origin\x3dhttp://graceeheart777.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

:: What's the real stress? ::

All the while I thought to myself that schoolwork is stress enough for me. When I stepped into a real job, even though it's just internship, I start to acknowledge my seniors and elders who says they are stressed out at work. It isn't a temp job where employers don't really take you seriously, and you yourself don't take the job seriously.

This time I bear responsibility, I receive feedbacks, I've work assigned directly to me. Because I had a talk with one of my manager last week, I seemed to have become intimidated by his presence each time he appears. I felt as if he is monitoring every move I make, thinking when am I gonna speak to my colleagues. I find it so hard to speak to my colleagues, coz I don't know them. They keep talking mostly about motherhood and holidays. I've no interest in all that. Though sometimes I might wanna add on some stuff on top of what they say, just for the sake of speaking to them. I feel restricted to even laugh along as they joke, and to open up. When is this gonna be over. I feel more relax when my manager isn't around. It's not so bad if Cecilia is around. At least I don't have the psychological pressure in mind. She's a very nice lady. Not that the other manager isn't. Just that I'm afraid now...he kinda resembles P.Pete. Initially I was pretty afraid of P.Pete too. Later I still can make fun of him. But it took about a year. Becoz P.Pete sometimes would deliberately stand behind me to wait to hear me share in a discussion group. Argh..I hate that feeling. That's why I gave up on teaching. Don't like it whenever a parent watches you, or another teacher watches.

Oh man... Each time Cecilia gives me stuff on hedging, I would be very afraid I make mistakes. BUt so far I didn't..haha! Coz it's so impt not to make mistakes for hedging..it's a buy/sell long/short issue. Not a laughing matter. Other than that, tasks like VAX invoices aren't that bad. Coz if there are any mistakes, i still can wash them out in the system. haha. Just depends HOW MUCH you wash out. haha. Not fun to do washing out ah..

Somehow Cecilia resembles Clare. haha. THere's just the sense of authority in her. Unlike the rest. BUt she's still friendly at the same time. Clare always says she will appear fierce at work. She does definitely. Cecilia is serious at work too when she gives instructions, that sometimes I'm also afraid. haha. I'm always afraid of this and that. Can this stop??

posted at [8:28 PM]

_____________

Intro

Thank you to all who visits my blog!! My entries would be a mirror of my life stories. Some of the entries might not sound edifying. However, at the end of the day, He'll bring good.
If you're looking for one with a "perfect" life, you'd be disappointed. I'm still human afterall, living in the imperfect earth and imperfect market.
My email: servantgrace777@gmail.com

Tagboard by Tag-World