Miss ConGeNiaLity's Chronicles

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

:: Practice This Evening ::

Unspeakable!

We had prayer at 7.30pm. I kinda dread it actually, especially when pastor wanted us to gather in groups of 3(s). OH MY!! My group was Paul David and ZiYu. Can't believe it.. I went MUTE for the entire prayer. When we switched group to one where there was Leroy, Joshua, Terry, Kevin and Kelvin Lai..I felt even more lost, as I was the only Female. Oh man... What was happening, I thought. Later, we break up further into smaller group, and I was left with Leroy and Joshua. Phew.. Though I was still the only female, at least the ppl are now much younger. I knew I had no more excuses not to pray. Just when I wanted to pray, I opened my eye to peeped and see if they were all staring at me and waiting for me to speak.... I opened my eye and saw an amusing scene. haha!! Both Joshua and Leroy had their eyes SHUT TIGHTLY and expressing deeply in thoughts of prayer unto God. No one was LOOKING at me. What am I thinking about?? I felt to silly and had to laugh at myself. However, I held back my laughter and went ahead to pray. haha. So silly!!

Half-way through prayer. Pastor went into talking about repentance and a change of hearts. It was hitting at me some way, as I knew at times I'm guilty of contamination. It was then I knew my heart had been hardened because of distractions (many ways). God place different ones in my life not for me to switch my focus from Him to them. I know what I've been thinking. It's good I'm learning from the different ones, but I should not come to a point where I focus on them to be my sole guidance, to speak the way they do, to dress the way they do, etc. That's where I've gone wrong. Ultimately, all words of wisdom comes from God, not that very person. Look to the Owner, not the servant of the Owner.

Everyone almost knelt at the altars, at their seats. I had NO WHERE to kneel. I walked all the way behind and found a corner to kneel. As I was on my way down to my knees, tears already poured. Can't believe it. It's my humble act that tears can never be held back no matter how good I can do so. The tears are for real, not those I use to fake for "show" or to wet my dry eyes with contact lenses. I knelt till my toes went numbed and my left knee hurts, but they were gone after a short period.

Leroy bought for me from M'sia the contact lenses, Baush & Lomb SoftLens. Wow! Bcoz of the exchange rate, it is really a GOOD DEAL. It's 48rmb, hence at 21st April, the rate was S$1=0.43rmb. Hence it's just S$20.64 for 3mths. If I would to buy at local shops, it would cost me S$70 for 6mths with a free pair; hence 3mths would cost at least S$35. Local shops don't usually sell lenses in boxes for only 3mths. Coz I wanted to try the brand so I asked for a lower period. M'sia shops offer them. wow! amazing. Thank You Lord for blessing me!!

posted at [12:07 AM]

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