:: New Element in My Life ::
This are photos taken with my new mobile phone!!
This was YanRu and Me, at SIM Management House, up at Namely Avenue on a Saturday! We had Human Resource Management revision workshop from 10am-5pm, by our very own lecturer, Jacqueline Coyle, from University of London (London School of Economics). We had the workshop this weekend, both on a Saturday and a Sunday. I know what you're thinking. Yes, you're right. We had lessons from 10am-5pm on both Saturday and Sunday. It's totally unbelievable. It actually makes us look like part-time students.
Glad we had taken a feel pictures during the workshop, especially when we're at the Management House, as we don't get to be there frequently.
This would be how a lecture theatre looks, at the Management House. It's very woody and ancient. Worst of all, the structure of the sitting arrangements in there makes it kinda disruptive. Whenever a student tries to get into his/her seat, everyone else in the particular row has to stand up and let him/her in. I hope that explains why.
The Nokia 5610 gives me really good pictures. It has 3.2mega pixels. Therefore the pictures taken would be of high quality. I love taking pictures. Thank God for blessing me with this mobile phone. Ah..Yes. Have I mentioned that I could now take videos with audio recordings alongside? haha. This phone could do so! I know most mobile phones already have that facility. My previous phone, which had been with me for the past four years, wasn't able to do so. The other cameras I have also do not have those facilities.
Thank God for that facility. I could now do more DVs and MVs. haha. Go guess for yourselves the meaning to the above terms.
Last Christmas I received a magnet from HweeSan and TJ, and I really like the design, and more importantly it bore my Name, Grace. One afternoon while I was doing my normal shopping, I came into a gift shop which sells that very magnet. I also came across many others with that same design. They have keychains, files, tablemats, etc. I got myself a file and a keychain. haha. This is a picture of my file.
This picture was supposed to be a bird. However I used my flash on the mobile in an incorrect manner and hence it produces such a design. haha.
Before I end this blog, I guess I would like to mention something which had impressed upon me by Jacqueline Coyle during the workshops. Lets take alook at the various phrases:
"If you keep looking for something, you'll definitely find it!"
"My bark is bigger than my bite"
Jacqueline was elaborating into the topic of Psychological Contracts on Saturday. We are looking into the area of justice within the employment. Statistics have shown that workers who were unfairly treated in the past, would tend to perceive an unfair treatment in their subsequent workplaces. It might be a genuine unfair treatment in their subsequent workplaces, or it may not be. What we're saying here is that employees who were previously unfairly treated tend to be more vigilant in their subsequent workplaces. They're more suspicious. What happens then? Any small little issue could be a big issue to them. If they're slightly mistreated, misrespected, they would perceive that the organization has breached the psychological contract. This could be one of the reasons to the incidents where employees attack their employers.
I felt rather guilty after hearing what she had just said. I felt she was kinda speaking to me or was it God who was trying to tell me something through her. I guess it was the latter. I had a dispute at cell on Friday. I was really upset, however I couldn't understand why was I so upset over little things. It was then I knew that events of the past could have effects on me that now still affects me. I've not let go. Each time as God wants to help me, I placed all my past, my hurts, my tears, my anger at His altar. However, I kept some along with me before I left the altar. Doesn't that sound ironic? I gave forgiveness to whoever who had hurt me before, but I kept the traumatic memories with me. It is true that we can never forget what had happened, however, choosing to reflash those memories again and again would birth the anger, the feeling of hurt that were there before I had placed them at the altar previously.
If that continues, I would always perceive to be misjudged, hurt, backstabbed, etc. Hence I would look into every little issues, miscommunication, comments, actions just to find any negativity in them. There's no place on earth, the Imperfect world, that has none of the little issues, miscommunications, bad comments, wrong actions, etc. Hence if I keep searching for them, I would definitely find them.
(I would leave the other phrase to my next blog entry.)
posted at [5:22 PM]
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
The Video That would CHANGE my Mind
A remarkable phone call from a 12-yr old boy to Houston radio station KSBJ FM 89.3. So profound, the station has it posted on their website. Click below to listen to it. It's short .
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:: I don't want any Photos!! ::
This year's production I chose not to take any photos during the performances. I felt there was no meaning to it. Though I brought my camera during those 2 days, but my hands just don't feel like reaching for it. However, after receiving those photos from the PL choir, my heart aches. It just makes me even angrier or fed-up. Stop sending!! Stop gloating!! I'm deleting all those messages.
It's crazy. It's like floats and floats of emails. One go I received 10emails in my inbox. I guess it's time to change my email address. I wanna be detached away. Stop bothering me!!
All these while I've been suffering in silence. Why are others able to voice out their preferences? Why can't I, and why didn't I? I felt as if I was of nobody's respect at AR. I am always alone. E mentioned that since I'm here, R 一个人在 PL would be 这么可怜.. Excuse me!! 可怜的人是我吧 好不好? At least she has another buddy of her familiar clique. What's this all about???
I had to purposely report late, so I wouldn't have to hang around all by myself, having nothing to do, no one to talk to before rehearsals started or EQ.
Should I really make another decision? Is it really time to leave? Perhaps my purpose of staying was wrong in the first place..
posted at [10:57 PM]
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:: After Guilty Presentation ::
We had the opportunity to rebuke the curse over the families and the generations. Curse of sin, of sickness, of poverty, etc. It's broken on Resurrection day. However, we must still continue in prayer and fasting.
I'll make it a point to do so from now onwards.
Last night, I watched Rouge together with my mum. I got to know so many things that a woman should know. haha. We even started our discussion on it, and it didn't end even after the variety show. Terms like papsmear, cervic, etc. It's alarmingly dangerous, as the professor says "any woman of any age are at risk". They even have vaccines for that. I guess that would be pretty expensive. however, I'm not sure whether to believe in his statement that the vaccine proves 100% able to prevent women from the cancer. Firstly, he claim to have a large pool of candidates that did the test. However, are these candidates of similar lifestyle. That maybe questionable. I'll put up more research details as soon as I've got them.
On Maundy Thursday, I saw Kat's dance again. haha. THis time, it seems that after viewing it for 2times, I could remember almost all the steps. I can now do the entire dance. haha. Thanks to Kat I could now add in more moves to my next choregraphy. haha.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
:: my haircut has reduced my traits of beauty ::
After my haircut, I could almost feel that the attention I attain previously has reduced tremendously. It was as though I became invisible. I feel that I am perhaps no longer possess the beauty I previously have. I just hope no one detest me. I kinda feel that my current looks might be a pest to the people around me. I feel like a criminal, when people questions me here and there on why I've had my hair cut. Yes, I do admit I made a great mistake. I've also regretted and repented. However, sometimes can't be undone. All I could do now is to wait for it to grew long again.
While I was at last night's full dress rehearsal. I felt that the 10minutes of waiting at the backstage before the next scene was due for our appearance was pretty good for social networking. I discovred that the sop singer beside me was working for E&Y!! Ernest & Young!! However, she actually was applying for an auditing position, her familiar line but she was glad to be put to do Property and People Mgt. Some PR related stuff. She also mentioned that there are certain accounting questions that the interviewer would ask. It seems that E&Y emphasizes on ethnics and FRS; FRS32 in particular. However, the question asked would seems really vague yet broad, hence your answers would really be uncertain to the interviewer's expectations.
"How much do you know about FRS?"
"Tell me more about yourself."
Such questions really comes in like a ball hitting the roof and coming down again. If your answers ends up like the ball which hits about in the enclosed hut, it might not do you good.
At the same time, for my own reading, I've found this via google and hence this URL:
www.asc.gov.sg/frs/attachments/2004/FRS_32.doc
FRS 32 Financial Instruments: Disclosure and Presentation
FRS 32 Financial Instruments: Disclosure and Presentation was issued by the CCDG in January 2003 and was operative for financial statements covering periods beginning on or after 1 October 2000.
This Standard was revised in July 2004 and supersedes FRS 32 Financial Instruments: Disclosure and Presentation issued in January 2003. Consequential amendments were made in September 2004. An entity shall apply this Standard for annual periods beginning on or after 1 January 2005. Earlier application is encouraged.
Measurement of the Components of a Compound Financial Instrument on Initial Recognition
IN13.
The revisions eliminate the option previously in FRS 32 to measure the liability component of a compound financial instrument on initial recognition either as a residual amount after separating the equity component, or by using a relative-fair-value method. Thus, any asset and liability components are separated first and the residual is the amount of any equity component. These requirements for separating the liability and equity components of a compound financial instrument are conformed to both the definition of an equity instrument as a residual and the measurement requirements in FRS 39.
At the same time, since we study FR according to IAS. We might be alittle curious on how it would be like if it's converted to FRS.
IAS 17: Leases = FRS 17
IAS 32: Financial Instruments: Disclosure & Presentation= FRS 32
IAS 39 Financial Instruments: Recognition and Measurement= FRS 39
Do you notice something? Aren't the numbers the same? haha. haha.
Grace!! I feel like screaming now. MR EDB (Kelvin a.k.a Clare's husband) would be laughing to know this!! Isn't IAS 39 in my syllabus? Yet I couldn't answer his previous question. Furthermore, I told him that it wasn't in my syllabus. What!! MR JK would kill me to hear me say that.
I'll try my best to post the answers onto my blog asap. Sorry for my folly.
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:: A Farm-ing Day ::
This was a day at the Goat Farm.
Here's how the goats were milking. They have advance technology to do so. I could see how the goats were suffering actually.
I'll upload a video on it.
Then we went to the Dragon Fruit Farm. haha.
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As you've noticed. I've had a hair cut yesterday, hence my hair's so short now.
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
:: Let me be the one ::
Let me be, let me be Lord, let me be the woman to wash Your feet with my tears and the oil from my alabaster jar. Through the times, where I stumbled upon my tears which blinded my directions, reach out Your hand to me.
The shame and the guilt would flushed me off from stability. I would kneel before Your feet and shed my tears as I pour my love for You, my Master. I knew I once was, and I would still be a prisoner to the sins that had me bound, if I had not found You. I knew that I would have ended my life long before, if I had not known You. You are the reason why I still live.
Continue to heal my soul and show me the wonders of Your love. I know and would want to know beyond Your love. There's definitely a higher horizon over this that I have now. You would give to me when I ask from You.
I do hope someone at a point of time, to realise the love I've been having for. The someone who would no longer restrict me from loving. If you've not me in your heart, please don't let me fall for you any longer.
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:: Last Night ::
Last night, it was 1.27am, I couldn't get to sleep. The images of easter, the sounds of the choir, the familiar faces of people began to haunt me over again. I wonder and I ponder. I couldn't help it any longer. I break down into tears on my bed in the wee hours, I cry out my heart's cries. My shattered soul cried out these very words: "Jesus, Lord Jesus.. Lord Jesus.. Lord Jesus.. Jesus.." and before the pause dragged any longer, my very next words became so naked and I no longer hide it from Him. "Jesus.. I don't want to do productions anymore.. I don't want to..."This time, it was genuine. My tears are for real, they were not commercially produced.I don't want to get hurt all over again. I don't want to feel so lousy and unappreciated. I don't want to feel as if I was the cause of all mistakes. I can't have such responsibility again.Have you ever prayed for something you really longed for?
Have you ever dreamed of something you really wanted and those dreams were shattered?
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Are they genuine or delibrate?
It works best for women who adopt the skill. Are their tears genuine or are they delibrate? Who could tell unless they have known her inside out. Who would ever knew she had practised "tearing" at home, hence she looks so naturally miserable when she uses the act for a certain purpose. Women could use this skill to get away with things easily, to achieve what she wants, to make others feel guilty for making them miserable.
Actually this skill isn't difficult to adopt afterall. Haha. I don't mind admittig that I do have the skill to do so. I wouldn't tell you how to. Everyone has their methods that suits them best. I've found mine. I'd upload a video on it soon.
Anyway, here's a video taken last month at the airport, on the journey to Terminal 3. Warning: it might constitute motion-sickness.
posted at [11:14 PM]
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:: Derivatives of Satisfaction ::
I don't know why that I could somehow derive satisfaction just by a simple sms in reply to my bugging questions. I'm glad I've got a lecturer who welcome students to sms him FR questions. Whenever I received the reply to my questions, I would be jumping for joy! haha..
Qns: Do we add or less goodwill (under James Model, Associates at Balance Sheet date) to find the Investment/Interest in Associates?
Ans: Add remaining goodwill.
Sometimes even after receiving the answers, I'm still not quite sure about it. What's remaining goodwill by the way? Haha. I'll find out soon.
Anyway, as I've mentioned in my earlier posts, that I could sort of manipulate my dreams in a certain way. Last night, somehow I knew I was in a dream, I tested so by trying to fly and I did. Hence I went to tell dad, who was with me in my dream, to try flying as well. However, to my disappointment, he just ignored my silly ideas. Hmm..Perhaps it was because it wasn't really him with me. Whenever I knew I was in a dream, I'd be so carefree, not really thinking about the consequences of my actions. (sometimes I do though).
Sometimes you'd run into thoughts that makes you wonder. It's as though you post yourself a question to be thought about. Let us take alook at this question:
Does jealously also means unforgiveness?
I guess jealously causes unforgiveness in a certain way, however, whether is there a direct relationship between them that I would not be in position to answer.
Is there a difference between a woman of the feminist spirit and a woman of substance?
Definitely both sound equally firm as the words portray. However, a feminist spirit is definitely a no-no to possess. What about the later, I wouldn't know.
Sometimes we give ourselves extra burdens, and never stop our minds from thinking. haha.
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Wednesday, March 05, 2008
:: 1st paper-Elements of Law Contract ::
I know I'm blessed to have friends around me to encourage and be there for me during this season of exams. I'm not sure if it's because of exams or is it pms that I'm having mood-swings these days. I could cry very easily. Almost at any point in time.
I cry when I received a sms from a friend, wishing me well wishes for exams, prayers for exams. I cry when my dad offered to cook, when he buys me lunch as he knows I'll be studying till I forget to eat. I cry when I chat with friends online who would constantly give me godly advices. I cry when I read blogs. I cry when I see that there's so much more to catch up, to finish studying.
I could go on and on. It's like a point where I feel my entire being withering and crumpling down. I'm glad that not everyone isolated me during this season. I began to see who are really true to me apart from the rest. Although I don't agree with categorising friendship, however, sometimes it's just so oblivious.
Where have the people I met went to? Where have those whom were once so-close went too? Why were we suddenly strangers on the streets, who didn't bother to take a second to greet you Hi? Are relationships really that vulnerable and fragile? Nothing lasts. How much more can I trust in any further relationships?
Perhaps remaining as strangers was the best choice, because we would ultimately become strangers, don't you think so? That's a very ironic truth at times. As we move onto the next stepping stone in life, we put aside past relationships as if they never existed. If that's the case, nothing can last. Friendships would just be something temporal and it'd just serve as security for the needy for those who are involved.
Where's the love? Where's the love?
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:: Untitled 3rd March ::
I feel the need to speak to somebody. But who? My cell leader would be changed very soon. The remaining one however, would be very inappropriate to talk to. Because we're of different genders. Dreams which creep into reality have brought me disasters.
Where's the zeal? What have become of me? Has that step he advised made my disasters? If I stayed on, there would be disasters as well. After I left, there is another battleship, but I took the wrong path. I feel so alone, with no one I could talk to about it.
It's even worst when it's the examination period. It's like the humanity isolation season. Everyone has no time for you. No matter who you are. I feel like throwing in the towel. I wanna quit.
I'm pretty dreadful of productions nowadays, after the experience at the Father's Love. I felt like quitting and withdrawing from the choir, and seek refuge elsewhere. I dare not speak to new people anymore. I fear they would hate me all over again. I had enough of rejections and whacking last production. I guess I'm not up to it. No professional give up easily. To be a woman of "substance", I'm not ready. I even wonder if that's a feminist spirit (wrong) that pastor mentioned the other time. I'd heed Joshua's advice to speak to the in-charged about leaving or if leaving would be necessary.
Hence I became rather reserved and don't like to meet new people. Perhaps remaining as strangers would prevent many hassles or problems from arriving.
I'm sorry. All the while I've been trying to someone. I never tried to be myself. But I do know I still have certain substance of myself.
1. a smile that could be someone's gift.
2. a heart that listens to others even when her heart aches further to hear
3. giving advises to others who needs and neglecting her own needs
4. try to be at peace with others even the nasty ones
5. at the verge of a quarrel, she would choose to withdraw to a place to tear, instead of retaliating
6. helpful at the expense of herself
7. attends birthday parties even if the person didn't even bother about her own birthday
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