Please ignore those blank blog entries previously. THose were vanished into thin air due to javascript error.
Anyway, I've been wanting to blog about this new season of alignment and pursuit of God's first love, annointing, dependence on Him, etc. I tried doing things differently lately, and even last week, after pastor's message. He said something today, which I would want to challenge myself to. I want to set a time everyday, in a room, with only my Bible and no other musical instrument except myself, and to let God speak in His manner.
As I was sharing this at the combined cell today, Paul mentioned something which I feel that it's very appropriate- Take baby-steps first to move towards a goal. Perhaps increase my time spent from 15mins to 20mins, and increase bit by bit. He gave this scenario which will sound very funny, but it's very realistic. He said that it's not really possible to say I want to eat 10drumsticks of chicken now, when you haven't eaten that amount before. So take bit by bit, perhaps start with one chicken wing.
Make the goals realistic to be motivational; sounds like Budgeting, haha. I did the budgeting question for today's accounting paper. I like it! haha.
Furthermore, I also would want to work on the area of total dependence. Not 95% but full percentage. Work on work on. Also to refrain from acts that are displeasing to God. I would want to come to a point that I need not worry that I would ever fall into doing something God hates me to do it. However, there maybe a different way to rephrase this. Next most important issue, is about pride. Who says I am better than who-who, they-they, she-she, or he-he? So what if I entered CMs before he-he, they-they did? So what I am an older Christian? Did God ever used such factors to create a formulae to compare betterness? NO-NO. So...work on work on.
I do admit that I'm quite tired to handle certain issues. However, someone said this before "Friends never get tired of helping another friend". I guess I need alot of moulding in order it's my turn to say that. Takes alot of growth and maturity.
On my last day of exam, I intend to bring down my camera and snap pictures of the BIG sheet of paper to tell us our desk no, the GIGANTIC crowd of people crossing the zebra crossing after the exams, the GIGANTIC hall, the commander-looking Chief Examiner, the LONGGGGG queues at the toilets, the PACKEDDDD mrt trains down to Tanah Merah, etc. haha!! Would be fun!
Before today's paper begin, as usual I sat at the airport-looking windows by the flowers and grass, in the air-con foyer. I saw many navy-officers from Pakistan walking to and fro from exhibitions. Then followed by many aunties carrying big sales bags from METRO. Yes, METRO sales is on at Expo, at such a time as this! So exam-non-conducive. I just rested my legs and eyes, before I started hearing the usual groans and moans and appathetic-discussions before the paper. The paper was quite tough, as cute Mr.Danny has said. However, still overall manageable. A pass is definite, a B is by God's grace, an A will be a Hallejulah. haha..
I'm thankful that the Lord gives me a new song every morning when I wake up. I'm thankful that I see a new packet of camomile tea when I didn't complain when it was finished. I'm thankful for the refills of Brand Essence Chicken when I haven't even said I took the last bottle and I needed one more for my last paper. I'm thankful that there's somebody who will steal time to fetch me from Expo after my papers, because I stay in Jurong West. I'm thankful for the kind askings after my papers on how was it. I'm thankful for the titbits and the goodies along the way. I'm a princess during exams. haha!! Also after exams, =)