I was frustrated with the purchase of dress-code blouses till I broke down on Sunday morning. It was really bad because it was just before we went up on stage to serve. It was then I had to learn how to guard my feelings, and let God take Lordship over my emotions, my will, my feelings, my thoughts, my spirit, etc. When I went up on stage, I couldn't say that I was completely recovered, neither can I say I'm fine. It was Pre-service prayer, so I began to talk to the Lord. In between the that period, Agnus-jie came from behind to pray for me. She also knew what had happened, with regards to the wrong blouse color I've bought the night before. 15mins later, Pre-service prayer has ended. I asked myself whether am I ready to serve? I do not know. It was then I told myself to lay it all down at His feet, and worship Him with totality and wholeness.
The starting of the worship was Praises. It's when we had to smile. It's really hard, and I thought I would look really glum. However, when Pastor Gerald gave the cue to PGC to start worship by having the congregation to give a standing ovation, I began to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord. I found pure-joy! Joy that I can't describe where it came from. Definitely it didn't come from the outcome of buying the wrong color blouse! But it came from the Divine God. It's just something humanity will never be able to comprehend, but we just knew it by faith that it came from God. I asked for His Joy and annointing to fill me, and to remove all distracting issues. Ask, and it'll be given. I asked, and I am given! Pure Joy!
Hence I was able to worship Him with the Joy of the Lord! When we moved on to slow worship, I kept my eyes opened, engaging in the Spirit. However, this time, I was able to fully express my love and feelings to Him while singing with my eyes opened! In the past, I was trying, so it wasn't 100% yet. However, I could really do it now! Thank God. Amazing indeed=)
After serving at Adam 10am service, then we started the mad-rush over to Paya Lebar for our 11.30am service. 6 ladies squeezing into the BigGrace's car, 2 in front (BigGrace the driver and Cindy), 4 at the back (Doris, Step Chan, Rachael & ME). haha... The moment we reached PL (11.05am), we were all fused-up. We rushed up to the 4th floor Chapel and quickly assemble on stage for positioning and also to EQ the choir's voices. Aparently after the mad-rush, our voices creaked and cracked! A number of us squeaked during the EQ (11.10am). It was like "I love You Lord, and I lift my voicee... To worship You, oh my soul rejoice.." Haha.. It's really obvious and so funny. I think it's because of that, the high-standing microphone for the choir fell from the top till it almost hit Doris-jie's head (after the EQ). haha.. The mic probably fainted after hearing our squeaks! That was when HweeSan-jie proclaimed to Uncle Jeff, "Uncle Jeff, this mic bo jia peng (never eat rice).." The choir then burst into a short moment of laughter, in a way to relieve our tiredness after the mad-rush. HweeSan-jie then suddenly exclaimed, "Grace, your hair is abit messy on the top. But I can understand, because you rushed down. haha". Oh man...how can this happen. It's all because of the mad-rush. When we had our 10mins of stand-down (for toilet, comb-hair break) at 11.15am before we get up on stage again at 11.25am to serve, I rushed to the toilet to get my hair "disciplined", and make sure it doesn't "misbehave" again. Then we rushed onto stage again, the moment P.P got up.
It's probably because of the rush that made me so hungry at one point of time while we were still singing. My legs wobbled and hence made my clapping movements seemed "retarded". Anyway, I was standing beside the plant that day, so I guess it wasn't any obvious. This is NOT TRUE till the camera man decided to shoot at my angle. Dratz.. He probably thought in his mind not to miss this ger out of the picture, even she happened to be positioned on the "right-hand" of the plant. Wahaha.. Well, it doesn't matter whether I really looked "awkward" clapping with wobbie hands and feet. It's the Heart of Worship that matters.
Soon service was over and came the time for lunch. It's when we didn't have to squeeze for the first time in the whole day. We got onto BigGrace's car again, and sat so so comfortably. Along the journey to Bishan, we spotted this black car in front of us. BigGrace saw the car's front viewing mirror, and caught a Serious-looking eye. She then told all of us to take a look too, because it looked really like HweeSan-jie's serious looking eyes! Suddenly all of us began to wave at her, seriously thinking it was HweeSan!! It's until our car drove alittle faster till we were on the left of that car, and FOUND OUT IT WASN'T HWEESAN!!!! Ahhhh.. This is SO EMBARASSING! oh man... All of us quickly hid our faces till we drove-past that car. Whoever it is, just treat it as a friendly way of us trying to say "Hi". haha... It's just like the way P.Bea says how we as 3nitarions can be Unique, "Please this way, please that way, and we go Another way..". hahaha!!
I thought we had enough of laughters, but it hasn't ended. During lunch, Cindy shared her experience on bus 74 with Doris and Andrew. haha.. We called it the "Cockroach Episode". One night Cindy, Doris and Andrew boarded the 74 bus from church back home. They sat along a row at the lower-decker of the bus, where passengers on the left of the bus faces those on the right of the bus. Then this 20-odd guy sitting in front of Doris told her, "There's a cockroach in your bag". Doris quickly removed her bag to the floor in the middle of the bus, in between the 2rows. Cindy then questioned her "How is anyone gonna walk now?" Doris just sat there and said she didn't wanna touch it. Cindy then said, "I will never touch it too, Andrew you better do something about it!" haha... That was when the cockroach flew up and landed on Doris's neck (on the back)!!!! She quickly and tactfully swept down the cockroach. Then it started flying all over the bus at where the 2rows are. That was when the roudy teenage girls started screaming, the other ladies screaming and the some senior citizens making noises too. The entire bus was filled with all screams and shouting, because of this "stupid" cockroach!! haha.. It was then it alerted the bus driver, and the bus came to a halt in the middle of the road. just to find out what the Whole commotion was abt. to his amazement, that it was just a cockroach! haha, and he just went back to drive on. haha.. It was then the cockroach stopped flying and crawled in front of that 20-odd guy. This guy then decided to end the commuters' misery. He lifted up his right foot and STEPPED ON IT. The whole bus went silent. No one said a word, no one breathed. Then came Doris, who bent down and checked whether "it" was really dead. haha!
All of us can't believe it! We went laughing really loudly at the Food Court when Cindy was narating the entire scenario. wahaha..
After lunch, we went to search for Sky Blue blouses and Dark Grey pants. That's where the frustration relived itself. Then little did I expect Ellen who decided to buy the Dark Grey pants for me! for free! oh man..I seriously feel alittle paiseh. However, I told her that I will treat her lunch nez Sunday! But thank God that I don't have to wrestle with the thought of where to get that Dark Grey pants anymore.
When I arrived home, I was dead-beat. I couldn't do much but to shower and then sleep. For the nez day will be a whole full day of school followed by taekwondo training.